I'm Stuck!

Okay "I'm not stuck" but food is now getting stuck more often then ever. I had my last fill a month ago today and I have since discovered I can no longer eat bagels, pizza, chicken fingers, carrots, and hamburgers. Mind you I am not going out of my way buying, making, or eating this. I am plate cleaning...Logan's plate. One day he had some pizza left on the crust and I really felt like a taste. Well - one bite, two bite, three...no more! Luckily for this carbaholic my body no longer allows me which is the tool doing it's trick.

My next fill (8/22) will hopefully bring me to the sweet spot where the final step is the feeling of fullness. I still do not feel full when I eat. I just lose the desire to eat.

At this point I'm down 41 lbs. Interestingly enough I no longer weigh myself every day. It is such a yo yo when I do that. I can sometimes gain/lose 4 lbs. in one day but at the end of the week I've only maintained. I know that exercise is the key but finding the time and the comfort level (soooo hot!!!) does not motivate me to rush to it.

I've been playing with weight loss in the 30s for nearly three months and cannot wait to bring it up in the 40s. Reading various websites and from the materials I was given at the support meetings, I know that I'm on target. Who'd have thought that they (the doctors) really know what they're talking about?

As I explained to my mom since I know that I'm not doing anything "bad" and see that it's been over 4 months since pre-op diet began, I've learned to be happy with the average of 10 lbs. a month. I figure if I'm lucky enough to keep this up -- and add more exercise -- in another two months I'll finally feel it.

So slow and steady is the pace that I am finally forced to take.