Saturday, April 19, 2008

The Process


It's been five full days since I had my lap band surgery. To those unfamiliar with this procedure it is -- to me -- a last resort to gain control of my health.

The decision to have voluntary surgery was not easy nor made overnight. In fact it's been a good 15 years in the making. As a child I was not seriously overweight, maybe a good 15 lbs but looking back it was enough to effect my self-esteem and the way I perceived myself. Through the years of laughter, friendships, good times and some hard times I didn't realize that I was building a wall around myself.

After a not-so-successful marriage resulting in a wonderful role as a mother I lost myself. It's over four years since my divorce, five years since the physical separation (living together), and seven years from the emotional separation (I wasn't aware of it at the time). There's no more excuses; no more waiting. A new era is here and that's me as a "new 30 year old."

Previously in 2006 I had gone to a lap band seminar that I was not ready to embrace. Fast-forward to September 2007...my mother and step dad went to a seminar in their hometown to better understand the procedure. With mom's encouragement, step dad's reservations, and my father's support I started to look for a surgeon. I went to a friend's surgeon and waited three weeks for a seminar that didn't satisfy me. I waited seven more weeks to meet the surgeon and decided that this practice was not for me. I needed discipline, organization, as well as feeling like I was more than just another patient.

It was then I went back to a seminar in December to see the first surgeon. Now this very same seminar that I couldn't embrace a year or so earlier was exactly what I was looking for. Whoosh! Another fast forward...January consultation...two months of doctors and testing and follow up...and three months later I was being wheeled into the OR.

I can honestly say I was never in any pain or discomfort and not hungry at all.

Day One - sore getting up & down.

Day Two - little broth, water, and jello (was home by 3pm)

Day Three - protein drinks (a few oz) and very little water

Day Four - able to sleep on side and finally drinking water flavored with Crystal-Lite

Day Five - sitting here looking forward to peanut butter on two saltines (two weeks out!)

Feeling good and ready to go out with friends tomorrow.

The Metamorphosis Begins...


For years I wanted to change many things about myself and was always stumped as where to start. I believe in several life mottos and one of them being "never regret." It's almost an oxymoron for me to want to change but never regret that I didn't, couldn't, or maybe wasn't ready.

So...at the tender age of 40...(mom - that makes me 360+ months)...I decided to see what was out there that would help me change what needed help most. To me this tool is my brand-new lap band surgery. It's been now five days since I went under the "scope" and started my journey into butterfly living.

Karen's Definition: Butterfly Living
(noun, adjective, and verb)
butt-er-ph-lie_liv-ing

1) Live life as if you only have 30 days to live;
2) Realize that beauty begins within and needs time to grow;
3) Live outside of the coccoon and see how great the world is.

I share this blog with my family and friends to let them know what is going on in my life as I fight my way out of this coccoon I've been living in for the past 10 years and am ready to take on the world.